Friday, October 18, 2013

My luck has turned for the better <3

Last time I posted, I wrote about being in a really good mood and having tons of energy. For those tuned into bipolar symptoms by now, I was having a hypomanic episode. It felt really good at the time so I didn't think much of it. I did crash a little afterwards but it was just a few hours extra sleep that I needed to re-energize so it was no big deal.

A big deal though is that I've finally gotten a non-HR related job! Thank the Lord. It's in the energy sector so plenty of opportunity for career progression since I'm starting at the bottom with an entry level position. I'm absolutely psyched. Definitely feel like a new leaf has been turned. I just couldn't deal with all the drama and politics that I faced working in HR. It's so draining. And I'm just talking about my co-workers!

Something odd happened though. I got hit on by someone high up in the food chain at my new company. Don't really know how to feel about it. If he wasn't who he is, I know what I would do but seeing as I'm former HR and know how wrong these things can go - everything (and everyone) is telling me to stay clear. I'm flattered because this is a McDreamy. I kid you not. Stuff like this just doesn't happen to me so I'm still stupefied by the whole thing but I'll get over it. 
Keep calm and get to work. Right?

- P <3

Monday, October 07, 2013

Today was a good day!

Today was indeed a good day. I don't know if it was because I took my pills before breakfast - before I even left the house ( I eat driving to work) or if it was that I took my pills midday yesterday. Or simply because I handed in my one week's notice because I have another job on the horizon.. 
Although you did read that correctly, I believe it was the powerful cocktail of my pills back to back the way it happened. I've gravitated towards taking my pills in the evening or simply whenever I remember (sometimes I completely forget) and so my body is probably all in turmoil and doesn't have a set schedule for when to release the medication into my system when it receives it, never mind when I forget to taken them. 
I have severe withdrawals. Just like any addict. It's awful. Truly. I don't know why I neglect myself like this. Maybe it's the hope that I'm normal after all but again, what is truly "normal"? Whose definition are we following? Our own or society's? 

Anyway, today was a good day.

-P <3

Tuesday, October 01, 2013


Why, oh, why are people such power hungry assholes? Seriously, I want to know. The sweet colleague at my new workplace has turned into a devil in-something-that-doesn't-even-resemble Prada (and she's not even my boss!) We have the same job title yet she treats me like her secretary. And I can't say shit because I'm just a temp. That's right folks. No matter what they tell you or what the regulations say: we're still not worth a damn. Well, damn.. 

And because I have to drive for two hours to work everyday, half my salary goes to gas. So not worth it. Every time I think my luck has changed, I get reminded that it's me we're talking about and that apparently I don't seem to be worth much in other people's eyes. If I did half the things my colleague did, I'd get fired ASAP but she gets away with it. Story of my life. I need my bed and cuddles from the pups. Tomorrow is another crap day. Please wish me luck. 

-P <3